Freedom?

I wonder what it feels like. Does it feel refreshing? Does it feeeel….. liberating? I guess it depends on how you feel about it to start with. That peice of cloth that you were either asked/forced to wear because you ‘should’ or decided to wear yourself because you didn’t know better. Whatever the reason, you did put that thing on. And that thing isn’t just a part of your outfit. Its something else. Its a thing on its own. Its an identity. So how, HOW could you just simply throw it off? I just don’t understand it. I don’t know. I mean, I wonder, how would I feel walking down the street with my hair out in the open? In a T-shirt and jeans? Not bothering about how tight my clothes are or how much of me is showing? After I spent the last 13 years of my life covered up? Would I feel what they feel? Refreshed? Liberated? That I finally don’t have to worry so much about making sure everything is covered, can shop like everyone else and buy everything in my size? That must feel nice. Maybe that’s why everyone is doing it. Throwing off that hijab like a cheap peice of scrap paper and rushing into the hijab-less world with its hair styles and low necklines. Strange enough, I just don’t see the attraction.

But some girls just don’t have it in them. They want to, I guess, but they can’t. Either that or they just couldn’t care less. Cuz that hijab comes in real handy on a bad hair day. So why not keep it on? Prance around in your skinny jeans and bodyshirt, plate-sized earings that compliment your highlights that everyone can see. But hey, you got your hijab on so its alright! Doesn’t matter that your rubbing that hijab and everything it stands for in the mud. Doesn’t matter that you’re disrespecting the respect that little peice of cloth represents. It doesn’t matter that me, you and that nonsense you’re wearing are classified as the same thing. That my hijab and that joke you’re parading are classified as the same thing. You know what I think? I think that if you can’t/won’t do it right, then you shouldn’t do it at all. Maybe then you could tell me how it feels to be ‘liberated’.